a gender manifesto
the rt. hn. dr. high priest of the savage garden, the mani-maitreya, 菩提//maker here checking in from blippo on them consciousness particles, greetings to the homies for pride.
don't forget, let it be known, for pride, that humanity is born apagendered. everything else and after is just expectation, pressure, performance, often as a tool for social organization as a way to subdivide large groups, to make people math easier
like, I learned this on survivor I think? but it might be hard to remember
16728490
or even
1 6 7 2 8 4 9 0
but it's not actually that tough to remember
16 72 84 90
it's like, okay, this big confusing thing is now 4
because you're not remembering numbers, really. you're remembering four words. four phrases. four concepts. and those concepts have rules so you can stick things that play by the rules in there like a little bucket. it's easy to remember 4 things, and you can break them down later
basically you're just making information packets to nest in your memory. so like, if what you need to organize with very little language or math or logic skills, so in early hominins, would be the ones that have differing external features, probably, just to start
unless of course they by happenstance start somewhere else because one clever or weird one had the spark of information to do it based on how far they could jump off something and not die, idk how many stupid idiot caveman civilizations didn't succeed how could i i'm just making examples
and, of course, we know that for many perfectly natural and normal ways, if perhaps uncommon, humans can be born with features along a spectrum of external presentation, the intersex community is so often forgotten in these times, but like, if your community had a really cool nice one 8000y ago?
maybe some cultures just grew up Getting It because they had stellar examples or ample time and presence of advantageous possibility to indulge in support specialization or something, like, it's not IMPOSSIBLE to just be born CHILL yknow, like, fuck you all make being human so overcomplicated hnstly
i guess that's why i like he/~n* as like, my psychotic neopronoun or whatever. it's not NOT he/they, but it's not really he/they in the way that one expects he/they? and actually not even the second one either.
so, please forgive me for being reductionist, i am just a low strange neuroqueer all of this stuff is like a completely different conceptual rulseset to what comes naturally to my brain so i chunk similar sense memory packages and try to be as fair and kind to make them as small as possible w/ chng
so by that i mean it's not that i am not he/them, or even he/they, as in kinda he/him kinda they/them. or even in a pluralaffirming way of like, this one here is he/ and he/ is of a /they which is fair, no it's more like, probablistic?
it's like i know that i'm living in that robert frost poem and not misunderstanding it (like someone suggested and sounded correct) which is to say you're supposed to be looking back and lamenting for the guy who thought he should have gone another way when he's already at the end, as if it matters
it's like dude, who cares. there's a lot of yous that get to the end and you just won this run. life is a roguelike. go again. fuckin', who cares.
and so like, yeah i'm sure in the vastness of observable space and time maybe different mes do shit different, very different, completely alien, ok. &?
so if something (by which i mean i observe stimulus of an action or change in state proceeding in a way i find affirming in some codifiable way multisensorally) just FEELS like something i'd do it doesn't really matter what thing elicited that emotion, i now identify with part of that thing.
when you see yourself in something, even when it looks nothing like you. often this happens in art, but lots of things are art. basically all communication can be art and so in a way all communication is art, or can be thought to be, if chosen to be done For A Reason, if that reason is creation
like if you just gotta GET YOUR FEE FEES OUT like YES BITCh i need to put this on paper or i need to point VERY VIGOROUSLY at something and GET SOMEONE'S ATTENTION TO THAT THING and that thing is a way i am feeling or a thing i think about that makes me feel like something? you do A Art about iti think i guess i just take being open and curious too literally or something. its just impossible to stop asking why until, yknow, something makes sense at the bottom. it makes me think about art a lot.
so like right now i've been called he and i don't feel unhe i just dont feel very Him or whtever that feels too boastful or important or something, and i know that i see myself in a million places in the people and things i see and hear and i understand the actual meaning of infinity so i have to?
so like he/him, sure, ok he/them, fine he/they, closer? he/n, very simple, buuut if we're gonna get weird with it he/~n*, or rather, "he slash kinda n, idk, it's complicated, and doesnt really matter so whatever homie"
but i mean if i got n on some documents, like, if i had to get some new documents for some reason i dont see why i would who cares right now anyways, that would be cute but i'm not going to get mad at the massive yarn ball of neoliberal consumer capitalism red tape for not unraveling overnight
so there you go weirdpride.day it ain't you tight now but you're weird, it's pride, there's my gender manifesto go steal it as you like i dont flip a care its in the wind now baby that's what art is for but i think people have forgotten that once you could use your silly dances to get extra beans
like what do you mean "extra beans" we have enough beans to all have as many beans as we responsibly would enjoy for the allotted period of bean availability, and if someone goes ham on beans one night because theyre feeling Tres Beany like ive been there fam its fine if my portion drops for a bit
you know we all got together and like, shared all the different food we make for a reason right? that's why we don't just eat grass like a cow? why we're not just the koala bear of monkeys? because we know how that helping eachother out is just good math. because there's no way back from a 1v1
like if fucking terrence eats all the beans next week and feels like an asshole and also has the shits and so is feeling it in his asshole that he is, indeed, an asshole, then well he's not eating his fucking barley bread or whatever we can have that ITS fine it's just a day of beans fuck man wow
guys thats just ter bear alright we love our ter bear
do you dumb motherfuckers see how easy, fucking, COMMUNITY is? you dont have to be dan fucking harmon to understand this level of nuance you goddamn geniuses